I have been writing daily for the past six years without missing a day, currently on journal 18. This blog is a reflection on those journals and my views on the world
Society is changing all together, AI is taking over our jobs, and we are glued to our phones without questioning what is going on in this world. Days pass by and we don't get bothered living the same day over and over as long we can pay rent and able to afford those small luxuries in our lives, being able to afford instagram-eque food is more important than saving for a house because we get a chance to flaunt our imaginary wealth publicly
Everything now is a competition, an endless fight on being seen publicly by the masses and certain people are willing to do anything to be seen even if it means being humiliated or losing their honor for money and fame even if it means tricking and grifting others to reach their objectives, others watch for the sake of watching or contribute to make those charlatans rise since that is what the masses are doing and since everyone is doing it then nobody is batting an eye on you
We lost our purpose in life and decided to be swayed away with what social media dictates today, majority are living without knowing what to do and daydreaming a life where they can get to be at the beach sipping martinis and not work at all yet make loads of money without breaking a sweat. Unfortunately life doesn't work this way and your idea of living this fantasy life is not obtainable with that mindset that you are being fed online, ask yourself if any of the goals and desires you have in your life are originated by your own or thoughts projected by others online that is making you feel that you are missing out on many things in life?
We lost sense of living well that living well is now an aesthetic you get to personify yourself with. Nowadays keeping a daily journal and reading is considered part of dark academia, meditation is considered being zen mode, walking in nature is now makes us outdoorsy wildlife people, everything in this world has been labeled that being normal is no longer normal. We got obsessed with things in life that brings us no purpose, I feel sad to those people and honorably mentioning those who entitle themselves to their jobs where they go through hell to fight a corporate ladder yet get sacked by the management to "cut costs", building a persona around their job (a direct hit to those who work in corporate like big four corps and consultancy corps) that they are willing to sell their souls to get that high paycheck and fighting others on a useless title that brings no benefit at all. I am not against working and I advocate starting your own business but when work becomes more important than living, this is where I stand against and those who think that you can make money not working at all, remember that there is no lunch for free and someone has to pay the bill at the end in one way or another
Now back to people being glued on their phones, it annoys me to see people walk around with their faces glued to that brick as if they are zombies and the amount of disrespect when you talk with someone and they are answering while having their face on the phone and they are willing to message than do face-to-face conversations because it is "efficient" and "fast"
For years I have been observing people around me do these things and decided to not be like that at all. I decided to pull myself back and enjoy a life worth living, a life where I feel human and not a robotic device executing commands, a life that appreciates art and culture in the sense of appreciation and not in the sense of aesthetics. I am not defined by my job (working in software development) and while building my own company is a work in progress that I would want it to succeed yet the main reason of doing it is not to claim myself as a "founder" or "CEO/CTO" but to ensure a certain level of financial security and freedom to do other things in life than being trapped in an office from 9-5 then try to find what to do with the scrapes of the day for my benefit
Sure I did read books for the sake of boasting myself online as an intellectual yet as I am starting to read harder and difficult books that holding this 52 book per year streak is time consuming yet brings negligible benefits since the books that I used to read weren't helpful but it was what the public was reading but with time I decreased it down to 14 books per year to fit my schedule and enjoy reading literature books that takes time to be digested, books that do help you grow as a person and not recycled trash that brings you nowhere at all
Sure I did wanted to start a company to show everyone around me that I am proof that you can achieve financial security, my dreams went towards being listed on Forbes 30 under 30 for the sake of showing everyone around me that I am doing well, yet would it be worth it to get that title than to help people around you achieve great things in life? Is it worth it to trade my soul for the sake of a title? Nowadays I want to build a company because I know what I can do and what I can provide for others, but I want to have my own company to be able to be next to my future children and live every beautiful moments with them along their journey where I want to be present to them while ensuring a stable life for them
Living well in my perspective is not being sucked up by this fictional world and do great things that brings us closer to nature, things that our ancestors have done for many years and yet works well. My current focus nowadays is reading, writing, thinking and reflecting, building my own company, and enjoying life being comfortable within myself and explore what the world has to offer
Turns that mother was right, it was that damn phone all along